I am the type of person who thinks a lot, as other people would say, probably more than I really should but that’s just me. I always wanted to leave the “thinking” thing to rest but it just keeps getting into me. While the situation now, especially, gives me uninterrupted time to think, I decided to drop the words and phrases that will undoubtedly and truthfully convey all what I would have to say.
It's not an epiphany per se, but more like big obscure revelation that keeps reoccurring. As to an unsolved puzzle, I see myself picking each piece one by one, as it happens, trying to figure out how to make it whole again. I find myself digging deep to find the true reasons behind it all and how it will look like after the season has passed. Each time, like magic dust dissipating no sooner than it reaches the air and all that’s left are the remnants of my past encounters, I see tomorrow without you in it and all I have are the memories and wishful thinking of still having you as a part of it.
Today, I’ve decided to leave the memories sealed so I can always go back to those times. When barely, I can say to myself that I’m ready to have those all back as good as treasured gems for me to keep for lifetime. I will have all the memoirs of the past guide me on the days to come. The rekindling of each morning gives me new hopes and allows me to look forward for better days as if I’m being rejuvenated and has received restoration to have the grin to face each day.
Hopefully, my heart can finally (even a bit) be happier and at peace, and so as with you. I still have a little glimmer of hope thinking and realizing that maybe (oh! My never ending ‘MAYBE’), there’s a higher meaning for all these. Perhaps things are just working as planned! I will love and appreciate each morning far better compared before. I will rise and face each morning with a smile and will always look forward of starting afresh, knowing that I have a lot of things to smile about. I will try to accept changes and think that perhaps things are moving in the right direction. It’s good sometimes you’ve just got to hang in there and have faith that things will work out the way they are meant to. Remember that if you want me in your life, I'm always here but I'm not letting the situation drag me down anymore.I've got too much going for me and I can’t be thankful enough for all the blessing that has been bestowed upon me. I hope that it’s radiating by now because in full honestly, I have no idea what‘s going on within me but I feel as though a lot is changing for the better and I’m letting things have their way. I’m letting go.
